...and don't worry. It's nothing at all like Eric and Cara's. =P
Oh, the big issue of trust. Trust between each other (more my trusting him) and trust in the Lord.
We just became regulars on one of Lighthouse's worship teams. Really exciting, and such an honor for both of us. It's also neat that we're on the same team. Yubo and I really enjoy doing ministry together, despite the occasional butting of heads.
We got the e-mail asking us if we would become regulars on Sept. 26. After a good amount of prayer on our own, two days later we replied that we would love to join the team. Nothing was quite confirmed for us yet until we received another e-mail on Oct. 4 that our team was going to be the following Sunday.
Some of you readers may have noticed the mini comment battle on the "Playing House" entry -- that happened Oct. 5. We'll be very honest that the comments got under our skin quite a bit. We were wondering if it was conviction from God or if it was Satan's ploy to make us step down. We were a bit alarmed that such comments came so soon after our joining the worship team.
We both continued to pray and sought some counsel. The things that stood out to us the most was how judgemental the comments came across, and also that it was left anonymous. It was a little creepy that the commenter seemed to know so much about us, and may have been from Lighthouse. We figured that if it was really someone of God that wanted to support us in our walk with Christ and convict us of something they felt was wrong, they would not have stayed anonymous and actually would have come to us in person instead of online.
As we prayed, neither of us felt that we were supposed to step down. When we got over that and decided to go to rehearsal on Wednesday as scheduled, it felt good to be there. There were a few snags that didn't sit too well with us, but I won't post it here. We're going to find a time to approach our leader about it, but we felt it was more of Satan getting in the way.
So at the moment we both trust that this is what God wants us to be doing. And of course, if He tells us otherwise along the way, we both have no problem with that.
The next test just happened a short while ago, although it's been building up. Yubo's best friend wants them to invest in a little coffee thing. I don't know what they're actually called, but those little huts that usually sit at the edge of gas stations. Anyhow, the seller of one up in Stanwood (which is nearly an hour north of us) wanted to meet on Saturday (tomorrow).
The problem was that we already had quite a number of things booked for that day. He has a plumbing thing for the neighbor of one of our Lighthouse friends scheduled in the morning. Then we have a section leaders' meeting at our choir director's house at noon. Then we were schedule to help with assembling AIDS Caregiver Kits (a big project that our church has undertaken -- we're planning to assemble a total of 500 for World Vision). It was a lot of church stuff that we both felt took priority. That last one actually dropped for us as there were enough people already (*whew*) so we are considering stopping by the Paper Source to get more definitive pricing on our wedding invitations. We need to give Yubo's parents a cost to see if that works for them.
Yubo was originally going to not go to this Stanwood meeting, but then called me today and mentioned it as he went through his schedule with me. It was the first I heard he was actually going so I freaked out because I was certain he had gotten out of it.
He didn't even know quite where Stanwood was, so I hopped online to figure it out. He had things so back-to-back that I was getting anxious and irritated that he was going to miss too much of this choir meeting that he suggested. I was trying so hard to get my heart to stop racing because I was so frustrated with him, and I was just asking him to assure me that it would all work out ok and that I didn't have to worry about it. His efforts didn't quite help..... he's a pretty good salesperson but for some reason he has a really hard time selling me anything. It wasn't until he assured me that no matter what happens, he's leaving Stanwood at 11:00a even if he ends up having to get right back on the freeway and miss the coffee meeting. I don't know if he was originally intending to do that, but that really helped me out.
I told him that I would apologize to him tomorrow if everything actually works out the way he had planned, and would try my darnedest not to be too angry if it doesn't. He just has such a history of when any sort of work is supposed to be quick and easy and shouldn't take too long, something happens that makes things more complicated than he originally predicted and I don't see him for the rest of the day. (That's an exaggeration.... mostly.) It's difficult for me to trust him in this because I think he still tries to please everyone. I even offered to reschedule the meeting with our choir director, but he said to keep it.
Man... I bet it'd be great to get his side on this entry. I'm still working on getting him to blog, guys. I really want you to see his view of our world instead of just mine. And he's still talking about blogging... just waiting for it to happen. =P
Life....
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