Almost three months since that last angsty post. Well, we got over that, and we're doing ok.
I recently went through an extremely difficult situation with my dad. Very long story short, I overcame that with A LOT of prayer from friends and support from Yubo. I felt really bad because Yubo felt so helpless. I told him I just needed him to continue praying for me and my family. Answered prayers all around.
So here's briefly where we're at now:
Work for Yubo continues to go downhill. He's starting to not enjoy his work anymore -- all the politics and what not within the company are starting to get to him. The plan is to get him down to Cali soon so he can take his test for his license. Still don't know when that will happen though as he's waiting to see what his best friend wants to do. They were planning to go take the test together. So that's still kind of up in the air.
Work for me has been increasingly irritating. I really like the majority of my customers, and they seem to like me too. But it's been difficult to deal with the change in managers and policies. Well, not really a change in policies. It's more that the new manager is trying to move us from the lax way of doing things we've been in to where we should have been in the first place. I am all for that, if only he would go about it in a more respectful way. It's sad that it seems not a single person likes this new manager, and despite not caring much for the old one, people miss him. I don't like this new manager because he talks to me like I'm an ignorant child, and if I ask him something that I think he should know but he doesn't, he simply brushes me off with authoritative arrogance.
Thankfully, I will only be there for another two months before I begin the attack on my final two quarters of school.
My decision to finally go back to school seriously is one of the things that has repaired a bit of my relationship with my dad. I'm trying very hard to not make it a "just to get him off my back" kind of thing. I really do want to finish school and at least get some sort of degree, even if it will just be an associate's. But depending on how things go, Yubo and I may actually go back down to Cali to take over the Northridge store and let my parents relax.
I'm still on the fence about the thought of moving back down. I really hate myself when I'm there.... but I need to grow up and be secure that it's not the place that makes me. Just being in Cali doesn't mean I have to revert back to the simple and sheltered child I was. I've grown a lot being here in WA. Who says I can't bring that with me no matter where I end up living, right?
Really, the biggest thing that would make me give up on just staying up here is Yubo's strong desire to be closer to his family. But our circular thinking holds us at a standstill. He wants me happy, and I want him happy. Geographically speaking, I'm happy up here, and he would be happier down there.
But I think we're just going to do things one step at a time. First thing to focus on is finishing school for me and getting his license for him. After that, we'll see where we want to go from there.
Life....
11 years ago
